When I was in college I used to be jealous of kids that came from less. I know that probably sounds odd, like I’m ungrateful for what God’s given to me, but hear me out. I was jealous because they had drive and determination unmatched by anyone else.
I used to say to myself, I want that. Maybe if I grew up differently, with less, I would be more determined to have. Now I have always been ambitious, competitive and wanting to succeed, but the way was paved and I was used to following the arrow in front of me telling me which direction to go, no obstacles.
But I have realized that everyone struggles with something in their lives. For some, health could be an issue, for others it’s courage or maybe confidence. For some younger 20-somethings as myself, we seek direction. That has been troubling me for the past year. I have had so many so-called “epiphanies” and “what-ifs.” At times I have felt defeated and alone. No one wants to feel like they just can’t climb out of the situation they’re in. We may want to give up, and just let the world determine our fate, but that’s the easy thing to do. It is better to struggle and become strong than to have everything handed to you. What do you learn from that?
Last month I set a goal of completing a post a day, and I almost did, but I missed one day, right at the end, talk about a feeling of failure. I tend to come down hard on myself about not completing a goal I set out to accomplish, instead of looking at the brightside. I had to take a step back and realize that I did write for 29 of those 30 days, which is the most I’ve ever writtern in amonth’s time on this blog and for that I am proud. So I didn’t make 30 days…there will be other times to do so, maybe even next year. Not completing the ask just gives me another goal to work towards.
I am thankful for the low points in my life, because they’ve only given me more motivation to make the most of the life I have been given. It is based on my own willpower and want that will determine the life I lead and the impact I leave behind.
It is okay to struggle as long as you do not stay in that place. Grow out of the situation you’re in, make changes to your daily habits, choose to connect with others and you will find your way. There are plenty of obstacles that the world will hurdle at you, making yourself one won’t help you.